green-faerie

confused, disoriented, and alone, these feelings are the ones that inhabit me my mind, my body, right down to my soul, the fill me like nothing else can i have tried, dont get me wrong, but nothing can keep it filled for very long, the false happiness of a high, the feelings of having someone's arms around you, but eventually they all leave you, and you have nothing but those feelings they are the things that make you feel the way you do the happiness you find is a lie, you think its there forever, but when you're out thirty dollars, scared,and hearing voices you realize nothing ever lasts when you feel someone's heat against y

she stands alone on the cold floor crying dry and silent tears the empty house stands silent as she fills the void with blood the tears stop she see's the knife, knowing what needs to be done what has to be done to make her happy in a way that is unimaginable to most feeling only the pain of each slice the loving caress of the cold metal the sting of each blade entering her skin the happiness that comes with every drop of scarlet that falls to the floor holding her feelings in her palm like a glass sphere she lets them drop the fragile mind shatters the peace found is gone the sound wakes her dream destroys her tranquil

Look into a spiriling well And see no justice See no fairness Only prejudice Look farther down the well And see the innocents See their death Live their sorrow Fall into the well Fall into pain And horrendous fear Falling forever. Land at the bottom Become an innocent Feel the bias Cry the tears from all centuries.

my anxiety i feel you there i can almost you see don't rest in my mind tonight i need the sleep hello fear you're not invisble anymore go away, even just for this night only six more hours until i'm supposed to wake Paranoia i dont like you anymore leave me alone! just let me go! four more hours... stupid nerves going mannic at the slightest sound of pressure better get used to it, it's not going away two more hours, and then i leave alright, mind, it's time, don't let me down again people are counting on you don't make me do this wrong i'm waiting, i felt you yesterday i know the way you work leave the warmth now dam

You have no personality. You simply take on the form of whoever you're around. But when you're alone, you have nothing to lean on. Nothing to keep you from drowning in a sea of confusion. Yet people like you, Parents like you, You brighten peoples days. But they don't know you. There is no you. You can't do a thing to stop this spiral. Either you tell everyone you lied, Or you keep up this charade. You try to retaliate. You do things you never thought you would, Yet you are still not yourself, But you are trying to make this you, You are trying to become a whore, A substance abuser, Even a good girl at the same time. It's s

Look at you Standing there We don't care about your mood We don't want to hear what you have to say Just shut up little girl You're not so wonderful after all Are you? Look at you Standing there Laughing with everyone else Who do you think you are? Close your mouth and open your eyes! We don't like you, are you surprised? Good, I want to see you cry again. Look at you Standing there Thinking you're so cool, Quit it, real friends don't care how much you can buy. Stop speaking, your whining is pissing me off. Don't worry. Sooner or later, you'll be told off about it. Look at you Standing there Forever criticizing like you

Feeling kind of down, No one's here to pick me up, though. I know you want me to warm up, but how can I if my heart's still cold? It is almost numbing, to be so alone, but soon enough I'm surrounded, and I've been worn down to the bone. The tears are dropping my mind is shattered. What's wrong with me? Right now, you're the only thing that matters. This isn't beauty, this is pain, but it's not what I want. Maybe insane, maybe not, but I do not have any scars to flaunt. My private reality, Full of demons, full of liars full of thing we love to hate, full everything to my desires. Encased in something completely black, thr

Ripped away in an instant, everything you hold dear, now buried, helpless, needing a hero. All their lives, and all their love, never to see the next day. The vicious waves pounding away your family, the horrible sights of dead friends, the knowledge that your end is coming, sweeping across that small space. Sending the shivers through the air, ripples of fear through the people's minds. See the children? Hear their pleas? Have you found their bodies yet? In an instant, everyone was lost.

To My Best Memories, I have tried to syphen out the joyous memories of you and I together by forcing the wretched ones in their place but with no prevail. I have no bad memories of you. I tried to find some, but they don't exist and all I find are the memories which fill me with an indescribable ecstacy I so sorely miss. I have tried to make you out to be a horrible person in my mind, but I cannot. You are a pure individual and though you have your flaws, they only make me love you more. Your imperfections are what make you such an awesome individual. I try aimlessly to hate you with every ounce of distain I hold within me but it all turns